“Once upon a time, my heart was hurting. I would never have understood this statement till I experienced it. It bled on a daily basis, continuously for about a month or more. I lost my all, just when I started to fully recognize how much he meant to me; It came just when I had expected better days ahead. “
Hi there! I can’t promise to give you the best of advice there is but I would like to share my story with you. I can’t say we went through the exact same things but I pray that this helps you.
“I lost consciousness during that month. I myself was lost in that month. It seemed impossible to be me again. My heart was ripped in two. It would have been better if it were slowly chipped and then cracked. But no! It was ripped apart brutally!
All hope was lost! In my moments of quietness and searching I found myself in front of a door. Looked like no one really used that door. I thought to myself “what else do I have to lose?” I opened the door.
There was something in that room. Someone in that room. He was a familiar face, maybe too familiar. You know, those people you meet every day and pass by because you know you’ll meet them again the next time you came around?
He pulled a chair and told me to sit down. He started a conversation but all I could see was his lips moving. There was a heaviness in my heart so loud that it drowned out all he said. I couldn’t hear his voice. Then all of a sudden he stopped talking.
Then he grabbed me in his arms. He held me close to his heart like he was never going to let go. I felt something strange. But I still had a heavy, noisy heart. I struggled to hear his words but then I heard him say
“Let go, honey. Let go. I am holding you, let go”
“That was too much to ask “, I thought
“How can I let go of the memories of the one I love? That’s all God left me with. He stole my joy. He stole my heart!”
Then I began to weep all over again. It felt like I had nothing left of me. In my tears, I decided to let go of my past, I decided to hold on to this man for I felt safe in His arms. Despite my worries, I was better in His arms
Then I began to hear his voice. His voice was soothing. This man said to me,
“I love you, child. I love you. Even before I made this earth I loved you. I know you are hurt right now but I need you to trust me on this one. I have a plan for your life. I love him too. I love him way more than you do and I am taking care of him. I have a plan for him as well. Trust me!
My love never fails. My thoughts for you outnumber all the grains of sand. Rest in my love, child. I love you”
He held me in his arms and I felt His love. His love is comforting. It is indescribable. Till now I can’t understand it. I’m still in His arms. I’m still resting in his love. His never failing love.
All you need to do is to ask Him to reveal it to you. And once He does, rest in it. Let go of your past and just rest in His love. Trust in Him, He loves you!”